The truth about me...and maybe you too.

Hi. My name is Tamisha Tyler.

 I am size 16 to 18. 

My butt is slightly smaller than I'd like and my stomach is bigger than I would imagine it to be. 

My arms flap when I wave and I secretly wish I was a couple inches taller so maybe then my dreams of being a model would be more based in reality.

 My teeth are crooked and it took me a long time to learn to smile and laugh freely. 

My middle name is Anquonette. 

I've always secretly hated my middle name; it takes too long to spell, so I tell myself that Tamisha A. Tyler would be a better writers name. 

I've always wanted to be a writer, but I always fear that I will never have anything to say. 

My friends say that I am a good leader but I often questioned whether or not they believe it.

Maybe because I'm still learning to.

 I'm single, and I don't want to be. 

But I can't figure out how to get a date. 

There are moments that I doubt everything that I believe, but I am afriad to tell anyone in fear that my spoken words will become a confirmation of a truth that I cannot face. 

I like to drink beer and eat cupcakes....at the same time

I wonder if I'm smart enough to actually get into the PhD program and I'm more afraid of the answer being yes. 

I'm afraid to say that I actually like my life is right now in fear that my words will speed up an impending doom confirming the fact that I don't deserve it. 

I don't remember how to ride a bike

I wish I had really cool smart things to say in a blog or paper but I can't seem to get past my own stupid thoughts, so I just write blogs; a stream of consciousness that makes no sense and hope and pray that somebody will read it. 

This would be one of those.